... I feel like I will never know love again, and I feel guilty for thinking those things. I think people (especially my son, and bf) would be better off without me.
Please don't think like that. Your son loves and needs you.
Your boyfriend wouldn't be your boyfriend if he didn't want you in his life.
It seems to me that you are suffering from stress, anxiety and depression.
Please get help, from someone who really knows what s/he is doing.
You can get over this ~ you just need some support.
