I am in my first relationship since I broke up with my very abusive ex, and things are getting serious now.
Am I happy? No.
I feel like I'm on a rollar coaster, it seemed liek it would be a lot of fun, but now that I'm at the peak of the hill, about to go down, I want off the ride.
It's too scary, and I change my mind now, but I can't get off.
How horrible a person am I?
