I am going to under go a counselling session about my anger problems this week sometime its something i really want to fix not just for myself but for her aswell if i do manage to get her back.
Yes i think that my anger problem is due to the incident of my eye and what has happened to me since then.
I think it does have alot to do with the trust thing i've tried really hard to continue making it up to her and proving i can be the boy i used to be, she has said numerous times she deserves better etc.
There has been a few previous times where i have smashed something or hurt myself rather badly(Physically)
I did calm down alot for awhile but problems crepted up and i just have been exploding lately.
I guess in more of a way the hearts and what else im doing is more of a way of saying sorry then getting her back as much as i want her back i can't change her mind for her but i can try to show that i can be what she always wanted me to be.
