I know it's hard. After a 21-year marriage, and many mistakes on my part, my wife suggested that I fly from CA back to where my birth family lived in FL, for a separation for a while.
After I arrived, I called to ask her to (1)please delay thinking of a divorce; (2) consider us meeting somewhere neutral to give me a chance to "win" her again; and to (3) ask her if there was "someone" else. She said, "There is now."
It was my supposed "best friend," who had moved into her bedroom immediately.
I can't begin to tell you the pain I felt - especially with the 3-4 hour time difference, as I lay there at night trying to sleep, and imagining him with her!
And I called, and I wrote letters, and I prayed.
I prayed that God would restore my marriage, and that he would help me to learn to love and be loved. The first prayer was answered that there was something better, and that came about after I learned some more about the second part.
I can really agree with Garth Brooks' song, "Unanswered Prayer."
Yes, it's hard, and yes, you hurt. And I do care, even though I've talked hard.
Good luck to you! And you CAN improve your luck.
