There's no way my fater would let me be with him... EVER. My stepmom even tried and failed, so there's no point.
I really don't want to go behind my dad's back like this and I sound like a push-over when I say 'I can't help it'... but I'm attracted to Blaze: physically, sexually, emotionally and all the rest. Whenever I'm with him, I wear his promise ring on my ring finger and he binds it to me with the chain it's attached to. That ring would have bonded us in marriage, the same ring he proposed to me with. And I know you'd probably say "You're too young to be thinking of marriage!" but I would like to marry him some day. -sigh- I don't know what to do. My heart races whenever I catch a glimpse of him or hear him speak one word. I get the shivers everytime he hugs me or holds my hand. I can't help it. I really want to be with him, but I'm torn between two loyalties: Blaze and my dad.
