Well, I guess we did get too serious too fast. We only knew each other (literally) for less then 3 months before we became an official couple. We went from being complete strangers to being in an intimate relationship really quickly. Perhaps it was time to put on the brakes.
But I've been thinking...
Everything that we still wanted to do for each other, we've decided to go ahead with a few of them:
- He's always wanted me to wear a dress and be more 'like a girl' (since I'm always in pants and sneakers, having this very boyish attitude). So for Friday, 13th February (probably when we celebrate Valentine's Day at school) I'll give him that wish. I already bought my dress: it's pure black satin, strapless and has a ribbon around the waist to tie a bow. Well, the dress took quite a bit of money (about three hundred South African rands), but it's worth it for him. Now I'm completing the look with new shoes and a matching jacket. Yeah, it's a bit over the top, but I want to do it. I've always wanted to give him that (it makes me kinda feel good too)
- At the Talent Show at the end of the year, I plan to dedicate a song to him as I did last year. Actually, we are both doing an act dedicated to each other. I plan to sing a song called "Halo" by Beyonce. It's a really difficult song in my ears, but I plan to perfect it by that time. The song holds a lot of meaning in it for me (best to check it out and listen to it to get the feeling).
- When we're both older, we plan to go to Italy together (possibly for my 21st birthday). We decided on this last year and I expressed the idea openly at a birthday party.
I'm trying to look at the positive side of things.
Maybe, if he agrees, I can put a small plan of my own into action: Since I can't go to his Graduation Dance with him, maybe we can have a small dance of our own. Maybe a day afterschool when we're both free? We both wanted to be each other's partner, so this might be a memorable chance, and an only chnace at that.
What you think?
Last edited by Ashes of Love; 01/24/09 08:56 PM.
