Hello Sillybirds.
I don't think that it is pathetic at all ~ especially at 15.
You had a friend, who became a boyfriend, who, then, out of the blue, said he just wanted to go back to being friends.
This must have been very confusing for you.
However, if this was a year & a half ago, and you are only 15 now, then you were very young to be falling in love and he may have realised this and felt wary.
If you have a close bond, then it may yet develop into something special, and, being a little older, it may feel more right for both of you. Don't give up on trust until you understand him and the situation better.
You are still young, though, so be careful.
And, as you say, sometimes it's a case of being in love with being in love, rather than being in love with a specific person.
Take care
