That's not helping me right now at all.
It's very easy to recall how I used to feel. But it makes it worse because I do not feel that way. I'm the one who doesn't want this to work and doesn't feel anything for him. All being reminded of how happy I was makes me more miserable realizing just how miserable I am now! I don't feel anything for him. Not a thing. I'm stone hard and hurt and it hasn't changed a bit in these 3 months.
