Okay so I decided to update the people that have helped me out. I talked with my girlfriend about this, which was tough in itself, and we determined I need to work through my past before I can focus on my emotions and my future. The main problem is that she knows some of my past but I haven't completely opened up and told her everything that has happened to me. Once I do I think I can take another step.
So, I have scheduled to work with a therapist and I start tomorrow. I figured I should have done this awhile ago but the first part of treatment is admitting you have a problem and I never admitted it.
Again I thank you for the advice and I look forward to talking to you more throughout this site.
