I think I am more open with her at certain times than at others. During these times that I am more open I will tell her how much she means to me and how I would still be an empty shell without her. But sometimes it feels like a dream and I'm worried I'll wake up the next day and I will be back to my old life.
I think I'm more worried about after I were to say it because I've never allowed someone to get this close before and to say admit out loud how I feel would be taking the next step and allowing her farther in. I tell myself I won't get hurt but at the same time I can't help but be afraid that I might.
