Live for yourself for now. I had to make a choice to move away from a on-again, off-again relationship that was better in the "friends" way than as "mates." It tore us down instead of building us up.
Once I decided, sure it was lonely. But I grew within myself, and learned to love myself.
And within a year, I met Marge. I think God knew it was time that we could appreciate each other. I hope that if there's a next life, we have earned the right to meet sooner.