Hi
When I was 9, I fell madly in love with two different boys ~ and it was torment. I am now over 50 and I still believe that I really was in love with those boys ~ I still think of them with affection ~ so I am not going to say that these feelings aren't real, but I will say that it is not something to worry about. (The one actually became 'my boyfriend' for a while. We built dens together. But we were too young for kissing, etc.)
These boys who you feel so strongly about, without even really knowing, are like pop stars, in a way.
When I was about 16, I was in love with David Cassidy (major pop star of the day) ~ or I thought I was. He was handsome and all the girls swooned over him, but did any of us really love him? ~ Of course not; we didn't even know him.
I am warning you now ~ this happens a lot during adolescence.
At your age you are programmed, by hormones, to find boys attractive. You may or may not know them; they may or may not be nice people, etc.
This is why you are not sure about your feelings. These boys are attractive, but you know that you don't even know them.
You are in love with love ~ that's normal at your age ~ and you think that you are in love with handsome strangers ~ which is also normal at your age.
Some very young girls actually start having relationships. This is not advisable. It can cause problems. Stay young while you are young. Wait until you are older for boyfriends. You can't help finding boys attractive, but you are not really ready to do anything about this.
Girls who have serious relationships, when they are too young to cope, are the ones who may become pregnant while they are children, themselves, or have emotional problems, or even health issues.
It's ok to find boys attractive ~ it's even ok to have a sweet & innocent boy-friend, of your own age, who you trust (if your parents are ok with it), but leave the serious stuff alone for a while.
And, if you are going to simply acknowledge that you find certain boys attractive, but are not going to act on these hormone-induced feelings, then you won't need to worry about them.
Just have fun while you are young.
And I agree with the advice to speak with a parent, guardian or counsellor, if you need to talk these things over.
I am afraid that I am going to have to mark your account: 'no-post, under-age'. Sorry
Good luck!
