You've been dating your girlfriend for 5 months & she hasn't cheated on you. You love her & you know that she loves you.
You say that if your current girlfriend cheated on you, you would die.
She knows how scared you are and she has told you that she would never do anything to hurt you.
When drunk she told her friend that she found another boy attractive and, though she wanted him as a friend, she was concerned that she might get together with him if ever she was with him when drunk ~ but she doesn't want this to happen and she rarely drinks.
She worries about relationships because, in the past, she has cheated on boyfriends. But she hasn't had sex with many boys.
You have issues with jealousy.
At present you have a relationship with a girl whom you love who loves you. You enjoy each other's company. You are faithful to each other.
But you could lose all this, because you have a jealousy thing and she worries that she cannot be faithful ~ all over things that are in the past.
You are scaring yourself and her ~ and putting unfair pressure on her. You believe that she is faithful and she has said that she won't hurt you ~ yet you are, in effect, threatening to die if she ever behaves with you as she did with others. Maybe she didn't love or like the others as she does you. Why pressure her into even thinking about this?
She found a boy attractive ~ that's ok. It's normal for boys and girls in relationships to find other boys and girls attractive. It doesn't mean that they will have affairs with them.
No-one knows if they will one day do something stupid ~ especially when drunk. But since this girl doesn't drink very often, and since she is with you so much, this may not be a problem at all.
Have confidence in her and she is more likely to be faithful to you than if you imply that she can't be trusted to be faithful to you.
Enjoy your relationship and control the jealousy ~ it is a very destructive thing.
