Well, hello to everyone here, this is my first post. I have a difficult problem in the romance area. So this is a long story and a special story for me. Well I guess it started after the 8th grade (im in my last year of college now), her name is Ida, who I like. I've known her since I was 9. She's a very special girl, intelligent, and
VERY attractive.
So we went on a summercamp on our last year on high school, where I really felt that I need to talk to her about how I feel for her. It was a 7 days trip, and each day seemed to hard, since I was around the same girl everyday, I mean, I couldn't sleep, I couldn't eat without thinking about her. I had butterflies in my stomach each time I saw her, and waited for the 'right' moment. I had no idea if she liked me or not, but I liked her and I felt just talking to her. And one night, one of Ida's best friends found out that I liked her, and decided to help me out. She hooked up a "meeting" place, where I could tell her how I felt about her. When we met each other I went totally red, and I couldn't breath. I saw Ida laugh a bit, and then she took a look on me, and somehow I think she understood what was going on, and then she just ran away. Just 10 minutes after this incident I told her friend to tell Ida how I felt, and so she did. But the answer was a total failure, from what I heard.. (this was on the last day) and so from that day I couldn't even look properly into her eyes ever again. But still one thing bothered me, she didn't answer directly to me, and that kinda annoyed me. So I called her several times with great courage, but she never answered on purpose. Then all of a sudden on night I got a SMS from her, which said that she had no interest in me at all. I was totally broken after that...
Now we started on College, though I had applied for the same college as Ida, I didn't get in, because my grades were too low. Then a whole year had passed and once again I had applied on the same school as Ida. And luckly I got in, also in the SAME class as her. When I saw Ida there after such a long time, she smiled at me, and gave me a hug, telling that she felt good of joining her class. So from this day we started to talk more often, NOT MUCH, just friend talk, we hug each other (special occasions), and I could also call her asking her out for movies and boardgames and such, but the thing always annoyed me was that we always had some idiots around us, destroying the very good moment. Ida wasn't actually MS popular in the class, but she was well respected for her intelligent and looks. She doesn't drink, or smoke (no bad habbits), she's perfect on school and everything.
I try my best of forgetting her, but I can't.. It's hard, it's not been a day where I don't think about her. I mean, I see her everyday on school, but I get scared in talking to her sometimes, I really don't know what to talk about.. When she looks at me, I go all red, and totally make a fool out of myself. Recently there has also been a lot of talkin around the school that she's been seeing someone, but I just know that it isn't true. Also does Ida declines it. We walk together after school, and enjoy a 2 minute conversation which I totally make a fool out of.. As hanging out with the guys in the class, I've noticed that many guys also like her, more than a friend.. I wish I could tell them what I felt about her, but that would probably be spread out all over the school , which I'm death scared of...
There are only 3 months left of College, and still I'm not even close to make any difference in our relationship.. I may sound all sick, but I love her.. and I would do anything to gain her. I just wish it was a way I could tell her that I love her.
Also I want to add the fact that she isn't the PARTY girl, who like having their ass be clapped on by others. She's a nice girl, who doesn't drink alcohol. I once saw her sitting all by herself on a party, I went to her and had a little chitchat, but that was for like 1 minute, and then it was quite all along...
From what I've been experiencing she has a feeling of interest in me, because she gives me these looks, and her eyes are so magical that I can't even think clearly.
So my question to you all experts in this field is.. What should I do to make her interest in me grow more than before?.. The thing is that I want to be more than a friend to her... This must be one of the worst situations ever.. But this is my life
