Welcome to the forum. First of all don't cheat. That will hurt you, your boyfriend and your friend.
Can you take a break in your relationship. Are you engaged, have you made marriage plans.
Concerning your statement "my friend will make me happy and I love him"
No one can make you happy. That is totally your gig. If you are looking for someone to make you happy get a puppy, don't look to a man to do that. You can be happy WITH a man, but you are the one that makes you happy.
Do a pro/con list. List all the things about your boyfriend that you consider important and all the things you don't like. Do the same with your friend. This is an excellent way to look at both of them.
You didn't say how old you are, but it sounds like you need some time to find yourself, before you find someone else. Again, possibly you can take a break from your boyfriend. The problem with your situation is that you are romaticising how you think it "will be" with your friend; and you know how it is with your boyfriend.
Last edited by BLR; 12/15/09 07:56 PM.
