Yea, I sorta find it ridiculous to be in this situation, all things considered, I suppose I am the epitome of hypocrisy. I go to work and counsel young women about their abusive relationships, and make sure I wear long sleeves to work to cover my own bruises. Pathetic and hypocritical much?
I have a best friend who I love more than anyone else in this world, but doesnt love me back (at least not that way).
An ex hubby who is just impossible.
An ex boyfriend who I sorta love, treats me well and uses me and hurts me all at the same time.
And yet another man, who I adore, and who adores me, but he is unavailable.
And all I want is a man that is stable, dependable, loving, smart and kind. A man I can marry and spend the rest of my life with, without my entire life being about him.
Apparently thats a very tall order
