ok , first of all i dont have any family or friends here in this remote area . i hate where i live but i dont have the money or motivation to move to a nearby area cause i want to leave but cant because i havent meet the requirements my company has for me to retransfer back . i am depressed and hurt to the point i struggle to just do daily things and have even missed work a couple times . i am wanting to get passed this but am so lonely its driving me insane . im not allowed to contact her and she hasnt tried contacting me . i just want to stop the pain , i have no esteem and feel broken . my nearest family is over 16hrs away .i sit at home unless i just have to get out and afraid of seeing her with someone else so i dont go to the only social scene for singles here which is bars instead ive closed myself off
