I don't think I'll ever be able to forgive.

I've recently found out that my partner cheated on me twice. We used to have to most perfect relationship ever (At least, I thought we did).
When I asked for reasons to have done such thing, he simply said there were no reasons at all. I didn't know it ached this much. The pain seems to get harder and sharper every time I think about it (and I can't stop thinking about it). It's something like a movie that keeps rolling on in my mind. And i am disgusted, i don't think I can handle it. The only thing I can do is cry.
He asked me for one more chance, and I gave him. I don't know what to do. I love him, but I don't think I'll ever be able to touch, kiss, hug, be with him again.

I wish I could just get over it and move on...