its over

I cheated on my boyfriend and betrayed his trust. i felt guilty and told him about it. i regret doing both. i love him and its hurts so much to know he doesn't love me anymore because of what i've done. now to him i'm a whore. thats what he refers to me now. i feel so useless. i wish i could take it all back but i cant. now i must live with the fact that we'll never be happy together again. thats the worst pain ever. i want him to know i know i've made a mistake and that i'm so sorry. i love him