Dont do what i did

i have been in love with this boy forever! he was my everything but something happened with my friend i had to brea up with him long story .. i broke his heart but he took me back but i think it was only to get back at me he lied to me cheated on me and broke my heart , and then again i still love him and go back to him he comes back to me whenever he feels like it and let me tell you this is a total mistake i still to this day have feelinsg for this cold hearted ass hole. and i still want him back but never beg for him never let him think he owns you and can do wahtever he wants and you will still love him cause thats what i did and i messed up BAD!