Hello. I'm new. Let me tell you the story and then please give me advice.
I was dating my son's father for seven years. A older guy who is 20 years older than I came into the picture while I was dating him in 2004. The older guy knew about my boyfriend but he was going through a divorce and I decided to date him for the financial help. All along I was easing his pain of his wife leaving him. So I helped him get over his wife and he was helping me financially. So it became a sex thing. He fell in love with me btu I kind of dogged him out because I was in love with someone else. But my boyfriend was dogging me out at the same time. So last year the older guy started dating my bestfriend but she didn't know we were dating. After telling her, she had fallin in love with him and was steady seeing him but he still wanted me. So early this year I broke up with my boyfriend and fell in love with the older guy but tables have turned and my bestfriend has taken his mind off of me but I'm just in another bad relationship as if I jumped out of one and into another. I feel bad about how I did him. Now it seems everything I did to him he is doing to me but he says he loves me more than her and has more feelings for me. This past weekend though, he took her on a cruise with him and I found out about it the day before they went which was Monday. He will be back Saturday. I am in l ove with him. Is he doing me wrong because I did him wrong I think but he knew I had a boyfriend. Should I except this, break up with him or , what. But to add. I am driving his car because I have no transportation. my cell phone is in his name and he pays the bill. I pay my own rent but if I didn't have a car then how would I get to wotk. Help please!!!

Pretty Girl

The phrase 'as ye sow, so ye reap' springs to mind.

You have a child by a man who you were in a long loving relationship with, but decided to get involved sexually with an older divorce, for money.

You didn't love him, then you did.
You loved your partner but were sleeping with someone else for money.
He gets involved with your best friend at the same time. Everyone is sleeping with someone who loves someone else and this is not fair on anyone ~ least of all your little boy.

Step back and look at this objectively.

What do you think that you should do?

If I were you - I would leave the older guy alone and let him figure it out.
I would not date anybody for a long time.
I would take care of your son and learn to manage you finances.
Once those are in order, I would start from scratch, hopefully meeting somebody you never met before so you have a clean slate.

I would wish the older guy well and hope he is happy with his new girlfriend.
I think you need a fresh start and you won't get that with the older guy. Too much baggage.