12 yrs 5 kids

My partner has cheated on me twice that i know of the most recent was a guy from mw3 witch is online gaming had a 3 month relation ship with him lying to me all this time having cyber sex the emails i read were very deep cuts 4 me its been a month and im still trying to recover i try. Not to bring it up but its bottling in side. Im still confused and still asking why my first and only love been with her since i was 13 im 26 heart broken and over this world.