The worsed PAIN

I lost everything I had, My job,House And b.f. We lived in a 3 bedroom apartment with ten roomates! LOL Anyway We had sososososo many problems and I had to go! Everything waz fine we cryed the nite b4 I left and the next morning he said I love you! Ect. He never called me back we were 2getther 4 5 months! So after 1 week of not talking to him I called him to here him say we are finnished no love! I hurt so bad! Hes 23 Im 19 And I showed him everything, When I cryed, Hurt,Happy every emotion, BIG NONO! I know in my heart he loves me but he juzt knew I needed him! What to do?? I cant live w/o His love!!!!!!!! I know one day he will be back!