LDRs The Best and The Worst....
I met, quite accidentally the love of my life via a game on Facebook. I wasn't looking for anyone and he was at the end of a relationship. We hit it off straight away, chatting via email then MSN. After 2 months he asked if I could ring him and I did...7 and a half hours later I put the phone down. We at this point had just seen a couple of photos of each other and I was slightly weary that perhaps it was all too good to be true...After a few weeks of calls I suggested buying webcams so we could at least see each other.
I thought I was crazy, I didn't believe I could be so in love with somebody even though we had never met, my friends and family were all concerned he was a serial killer (because if you date on the net the man 'always' is an axe murderer! until he doesn't kill you!)
I spoke to his son (we are both single parents) his friends, his Mum....I was hooked.
After a couple of months my friend here in the UK died quite unexpectedly, it made me take stock and so I borrowed some money and bought a ticket, 14 days in Ottawa with my internet love.
He met me at the airport and literally swept me off my feet and I just knew... After 6 days he proposed and I said yes! I had never been so happy..
Leaving him was the hardest thing I had ever done and on return I was so depressed. I couldn't eat, sleep or anything I was truly miserable. I cried all the time; within 4 weeks I was back there for 10 days. During this stay my airline went bancrupt and I caught Listeria, ending up that I stayed 5 weeks (complete nightmare that's another story) He was just as amazing, looked after me and when I finally left I knew I may not see him for some time...
In October he came over for a week and it was still so good. We planned our wedding day.
He went home on Nov 7th 08 and we have not seen each other since, he can't get time off, neither can afford it and we have now cancelled our wedding 3 times.
I am broken, I love so so much but immigration is so expensive and we just can't do it.
I am now ringing him tonight to call it a day...I came here to see if I could find any hope but I'm kidding myself. This type of lifestyle is not for the likes of me, if you ever consider this type of relationship make sure you have the finances to back it up.....Unfortunately for us love could not conquer all.