My Husband Cheated with Two of my Friends
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Original Visitor's Question from a 31-40 year old Female
Me and my boyfriend have been together seriously for 5 years. We were high school sweethearts and lost our virgnity to each other. We now have a six month old daughter together.
I just found out he was sleeping with one of my best friends [of 8 years] for several months, and then he had sex with my very best friend [of 5 years] who I lived with and messed around with her even after our daughter was born. He only told me because the friends told each other and one felt guilty and told a different friend, who told him she would tell me if he didn't.
I am trying to make things work for the sake of our daughter. But I am heartbroken. I have known for two and a half weeks and it only seems to be getting worse. I am just so hurt and angry. And I feel so insecure, especially sexually because this whole time I thought I was all he ever needed and he just happened to choose my two most sexually experienced friends, one of whom would brag to anyone within listening distance about how good she was.
At several points in our relationship, we have had discussions which I initiated about whether he would like to see other people just because I knew we were young and I didn't want him to feel trapped. I have always told him that though I love him, I would rather him break up with me than cheat on me, because I have seen it tear apart my own family. I thought that we had something truly special, and I had completely trust that he would never cheat on me.
We had argued over his looking at porn, but I figured that was just a guy thing, and ar least it was just pictures. I don't understand how he could do this because I have never lusted after someone else since we became serious.
I don't know how to forgive or move on. Really the only thing keeping me going is our daughter.
He assures me that it was not me, that he always felt disgusted afterwards, and that it wasn't like "making love", it was "just sex". But I can't stop these insecurities. I know I am a pretty young woman, and I already am back in shape after the baby, and I am intelligent and kind. I can honestly say that the worst thing I've ever done was nag him, and that was before all of this stuff even happened. I just don't know what was missing. I feel like I wasn't good enough and I can't stop wondering about everything that happened. My self-esteem is at an all time low.
Any advice? How can I work towards forgiveness, and how can I get over these insecurities? How can I stop all of these horrible mental pictures of it all and wondering if he liked it better (or else why would he keep doing it)?Sorry this is so long but I only have one friend left and I need advice from an objective source.
User Submitted Advice from a 21-30 year old Female
Sweetie, I know it seems impossible to leave but you have to. Someone like that won't ever really stop. You deserve so much better for you and your baby. It's going to be awful for a while but if you stay you'll only become more bitter. Save yourself.
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