Hello! Ashes in confused, ONCE AGAIN!
Kind of a long story. Hope you have your reading glasses on!
Three years ago a group of people came to have a talk at my school. They were promoting a new website called TeenActiv, a site mainly for South African students and teachers where they could get helpful information and start everyday topics in the forums. It seemed like an interesting site, so when I got home, I went to have a look at it. I registered under the name "Ichigo".
It wasn't long before that I had introduced myself that I had met one of the most active members of TeenActiv. His username was "Impy". He and I used to talk often and he was very protective over me, giving me advice often and listening to my burdens. At that point in time, I considered him as an older brother figure, a figure that I have always wanted in my life.
As time passed, TeenActiv lost it's touch and members slowly started to disappear. When we didn't sign on anymore, we lost communication between us.
One day, I logged on to the site just to check up on things. I went to look at his old profile and came across his MSN Messenger adress. I quickly signed in on my own MSN and invited him. In a few days I got a response and we were more than happy to see each other again.
Now we have each other on FaceBook too. We often talk there. I've met up with him last month. I must say, I was invited in by his appearance. He's a very down-to-earth guy and very involved (not like some guys that are lazy and play games all day). I like his attitude and personality. I have been very open with him, sharing things with him that only he knows. He has been the same with me.
I'm very attracted to him and am developing a very strong liking for him.
We haven't had any physical contact besides hugging, but when I talked to him the night after we met, he told me that he was tempted to give me a little kiss. The way we speak to each other is like the way boyfriends and girlfriends speak to one another (and he has told me that he has never spoken that like to another girl). We even have pet names for each other.
Although I like him a lot, he has told me before that he makes a sucky boyfriend. I questioned him on this and he replied: "I'm too upfront and logical. My previous girlfriends hated it. Like, when something's on my mind, I vocalize it, even if if it's not what they want." In all honesty, I wouldn't mind something like that as that's exactly how I am too.
But he doesn't like me like THAT. He always tells me: "You're one of my closest friends." I don't want to be just a 'friend' to him.
Help?
