Hello. I'm new. Let me tell you the story and then please give me advice.
I was dating my son's father for seven years. A older guy who is 20 years older than I came into the picture while I was dating him in 2004. The older guy knew about my boyfriend but he was going through a divorce and I decided to date him for the financial help. All along I was easing his pain of his wife leaving him. So I helped him get over his wife and he was helping me financially. So it became a sex thing. He fell in love with me btu I kind of dogged him out because I was in love with someone else. But my boyfriend was dogging me out at the same time. So last year the older guy started dating my bestfriend but she didn't know we were dating. After telling her, she had fallin in love with him and was steady seeing him but he still wanted me. So early this year I broke up with my boyfriend and fell in love with the older guy but tables have turned and my bestfriend has taken his mind off of me but I'm just in another bad relationship as if I jumped out of one and into another. I feel bad about how I did him. Now it seems everything I did to him he is doing to me but he says he loves me more than her and has more feelings for me. This past weekend though, he took her on a cruise with him and I found out about it the day before they went which was Monday. He will be back Saturday. I am in l ove with him. Is he doing me wrong because I did him wrong I think but he knew I had a boyfriend. Should I except this, break up with him or , what. But to add. I am driving his car because I have no transportation. my cell phone is in his name and he pays the bill. I pay my own rent but if I didn't have a car then how would I get to wotk. Help please!!!