This might get a bit confusing..
Well it all started when i was dating this guy Steven. At his graduation last year he intoduced me to his brother/Best friend (for 9 years) Justin. (you will hear alot more about him in a little bit) Well as the months go by, things were falling apart between me and Steven. I didnt really want to but I left Steven early March. He did ask me to come to his bithday party on March 24, and I went. Later that day his best friend asked me out. We were going out for a little over a month (and lot happened in that month, especially on my birthday.) and come early May he finally dumps me (saying how Steven was going to another city, all to come to find out it was a lie) for another girl. I was hurting more then ever in my life. He acted like I was the one to blame for the break-up. He refused to talk to me, he didnt even show a slight of interstest after I punched my arm enough that it left 2 big bruises on my arm. I mean i didnt mind then dating because i knew that they werent going to last long (because she's never with a guy no longer than a week) but he did 2 things wrong: He asked her on the day I had my Band/Choir Spring Concert (May 15) (I was in the band and she was in the choir) and he gave her the stuffed dog I gave him on my birthday/Easter. (and i had that dog for years!). But then a couple of days later he dumps her because he found out that she was leaving to go to Purito Rico to see her other boyfriend (but then on the last day of school (may 22) i saw her with another guy!). I was wondering if I did anything wrong here? or was it just the guy himself? I mean he loved me with all of his life, he wouldnt let anything happen to me at all and now all of a sudden he leaves me for a person who could careless about him.
Yeah it's been almost a month now since he broke up with me but i still love him. I still keep the two Tiggers he gave me on my bed. I talk to him occationally on Myspace, but he just doesnt want anything to do with me anymore. And every night/day when i hear the song "far away", i start to cry (cuz he used to sing that song to me). I still get upset everytime i see things that we used to do together. And because of all this i lost both guys who i deeply and truely loved.
I just dont know what i should do anymore. I'm just that hurt and I'm afraid to really move on. Thanks for helping and for reading this.
~Carolyn~
